By: Madison Sneath
Not tired,weak. (depressed)Too much,cops too.
You touched me.No proof. (helpless)To say your name,is to decide your fate.
Fatigue─ of the naggingof your name,of the decision to say.
ii. Two hours
In two hoursdecide.Two hours,vocalizeorapologize─
Admit my faultlike the cops want. (shame)Two hours,decision. Fatehangs over my head. (anxious)
Vocalthree weeks ago─name said.
One week pass,cops don’t call,excuses─ busy job. (apprehensive)Two weeks pass,excuses─ busy job. (confused)Three weeks pass,irrelevant. (despair)Voicemail.
My narrativepushed asideby copswith tunnel vision. (empty)
Mineneglected inunacknowledged peripheral.
You weren’tmy fault. (assured)Assault─never asked for,was forced on me.
The absence of yesis still no. (freeze)A kind no,presented with a smile,is still no. (fawn)To walk away,to sprint,out breath,is still no. (flight)When lungs crackfrom beltedNo. Stop. That hurts.It means just that. (fight)I wish for youto understandjust that.
Just the simplestatement ofYes and No.
But I no longer wish.
I will fight.I will vocalize.
I no longer apologize. (confident)